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Tuesday, March 17, 2009

wat ami suppose to do.

i did wat a sis should do.
take good care of my 2sis.
make sure they had they meal.
clean e house.
wash their cloth.
try to give them wat they wan they need.
even i dun have money i'll find a way to get money for them.
and wat have i do wrong or no enough.
or iam just not a good sister.
or iam just not a good daughter.

sometime i really dun understand daddy.
i noe watever he say/do he mean good for mii for us.
but is too over,iam alr 19yr old.
i noe wat is wrong wat is correct.
i noe wat iam doing.

tis holiday i really can't get a job.still finding.
i leave not much cash,or should i say no more cash.
but still i didn't ask from daddy.
since e day i started(start of sec 4,16)working i didn't ask money from him.
if only i didn't work,he will give mii school allowance.
even my first year retail course fee,i pay myself.
and i did give him money as tat part of time mummy need money to see doctor.
i give it willing.
even till now,mummy had pass way i still give him money if i work.
so i didnt wanna go out,i noe if i go out i'll spend.
so i stayed at home for e past days.
iam those type who can't stay at home and rot.ill go crazy~
but still i stay at home,as he wish.
only go for traning traning and traning~

yah i understand,he's busy with he's work.
came home his's tired and moody.
worry,of renting e house out as fast as possible.
but wat can i do to help.
tis kind of life is killing mii.
iam sick and tired of everything.
how i wish i could just stop it somewhere here.
带我走~


crying/tearing to slp is a use to it.
waking up alone at home is an always.
miss-ing thinkink wondering waiting hopeing is forever~

there's go much thing deep down my heart it just can't say it out here.
all those worry,who'll understand.
Sign off:18/03/09
-2.05pm



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