Thursday, June 29, 2006
wow =(...2day my friend told mii tat one of his friend n his gf past away...
cos of an bile accident...=0..so scarerly...
cos of an bile accident...=0..so scarerly...
from tis i know tat anyone can jux leave e world at any time n u won't know when
so we should learnt 2 forgive n forget e past...must cherish n treasure e friendship we have...
if nt will regert when e person is gone...=(
if nt will regert when e person is gone...=(
mii so stress tired n fann...hai..=(
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1:15 AM
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
im walking down myy life highway...but now im lose on e way...
wat should i do?
how 2 choose?how 2 follow my heart?
my mind can't even connect to my heart...
im scared..im lose...hai..
do u all think i like 2 quarrel with him (my father)
i dun like lo..but he alway will find something 2 say mii de..
n i nv tok back lo...i jux walk alway lo...
toopix..
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12:00 AM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
A new day again...as usual i will meet ping hui 2 go school...
today i was so sleepy in class...dun know y..
aNd things keep coming 2 myy mind...
so stress...ppl keep saying his name to mii...
n is like every where i go i will hear his name...
i may look normal but im nt normal at all lo..
wat is tis...y things be come like tat...wat happen..
he oso dun look ok today,he look SAD n STRESS
hai..wat should i do men???
i feel so sad when i c him like tat but wat can i do..
today i was so sleepy in class...dun know y..
aNd things keep coming 2 myy mind...
so stress...ppl keep saying his name to mii...
n is like every where i go i will hear his name...
i may look normal but im nt normal at all lo..
wat is tis...y things be come like tat...wat happen..
he oso dun look ok today,he look SAD n STRESS
hai..wat should i do men???
i feel so sad when i c him like tat but wat can i do..
i think i should leave it 2 GOD 2 choose...
hu is e rite person 4 mii...
after school wynny n i when to buy pearl soyamilk n pan cake...
wow..so long nv drink le..so nice..but e pear too much le..=( nt good..
hahah we luv pearl soyamilk...and xiao xiong bing...wynnw rite..=)
i injured my hand(a cuts*) ytd when im working i think...
tis morning i wake up it was so pain lo...=( but i dun know how i kanna cut...
i injured my hand(a cuts*) ytd when im working i think...
tis morning i wake up it was so pain lo...=( but i dun know how i kanna cut...
i always have alot of cut at my hand de..since i start work...i dun know y...
n some cut dun feel pain till e next day...n some cut feel very pain...
ya..i oso went dinner wif ping hui...she la call mii at e wrong timing...
when im about 2 fall a sleep at 6pm...she call say wan mii go eat dinner wif her...then i meet her at 6.30pm we went 2 e S.P KPT 2 eat...wow..so full...
after tat i went hm 2 watch Tv...=>
hai so tired wan go sleep le...if nt can not wake up tml..
nite...2 all..
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12:00 AM
Monday, June 26, 2006
so tired...school start liao 2day...hai...
so many thing need 2 do...and N lvl is coming soon..
stress...how i wish i can STOP e time.. .
kk..wan go slp le 2morrow still got school...
here is 2 pic From myy PBB camp....
wow..myy Q-Mistress group...
PBB Camp..Rox..i luv u ppl...will miss u all de..
n i wan
thanks YOU (someone) 4 e bear..
haha...
i luv it..=)
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1:01 AM
Sunday, June 25, 2006
wow..so fast tml school reopen le...
i haven even finish my home work...hai
so tired..i wake up at 9am 2day...
but i can't go church...i all becos of my father...
he dun wan mii 2 go church...
he say go there is like wasting ur time...
n keep asking mii y i alway wan 2 go church...
he really dun understand mii...
for mii i go church i can like 4get all e sad thinks tat happen...
n can know GOD better...
but 4 him im alway wrong...
wat i say or wat i do is alway wrong...WHY...
wat he wan mii 2 do...
i know im nt as smart as my sis...
they can study...i can't...
they r smart...but im not...
i haven even finish my home work...hai
so tired..i wake up at 9am 2day...
but i can't go church...i all becos of my father...
he dun wan mii 2 go church...
he say go there is like wasting ur time...
n keep asking mii y i alway wan 2 go church...
he really dun understand mii...
for mii i go church i can like 4get all e sad thinks tat happen...
n can know GOD better...
but 4 him im alway wrong...
wat i say or wat i do is alway wrong...WHY...
wat he wan mii 2 do...
i know im nt as smart as my sis...
they can study...i can't...
they r smart...but im not...
im useless n hopeless..
i KNOW...
but tis is nt wat i wan...
i try 2 do all my best in everything...
but i jux can't do it...
im born like tis wat u wan mii 2 do...
i KNOW...
but tis is nt wat i wan...
i try 2 do all my best in everything...
but i jux can't do it...
im born like tis wat u wan mii 2 do...
if i have a choose i dun wan 2 be in tis world...
I REALLY DUN HAVE FREEDOM...
i wan back my FREEDOM...
can i...
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11:30 PM
Saturday, June 24, 2006
im back from P.B.B camp..haha..it was so fun...but tired...haha
wow..i was late for e camp...i was in e bus when my friend call us n say
e mdm have lock e gate..i was so scared..scared tat e mdm will scold us or wat
but she nv she jux say she dun wan us 2 be late again for e camp program..
wow thanks GOD..
i thougth it will be very tough or wat but it not really like wat i think...
N thougth tis camp i make alot of new friend...especially my dorm, dorm 1 we rox mah & i luv u ppl i will miss u all de... i believe that these are life long friends
hehe..ya n all ppl form Q-Mistress committee...
we really did a good job..haha..tis is wat e mdm say...
ya i really leanrt alot of lessons thougth tis camp...
wow..i was late for e camp...i was in e bus when my friend call us n say
e mdm have lock e gate..i was so scared..scared tat e mdm will scold us or wat
but she nv she jux say she dun wan us 2 be late again for e camp program..
wow thanks GOD..
i thougth it will be very tough or wat but it not really like wat i think...
N thougth tis camp i make alot of new friend...especially my dorm, dorm 1 we rox mah & i luv u ppl i will miss u all de... i believe that these are life long friends
hehe..ya n all ppl form Q-Mistress committee...
we really did a good job..haha..tis is wat e mdm say...
ya i really leanrt alot of lessons thougth tis camp...
n 4 e last day of camp..it was so fun everyone was like not willing to go home
it was after the farewell party we sing our last theme song together...
we will like so close..we hug each other..n i really
dun know wat 2 say dun know wat 2 do tears just came down.. i cried..
ooOO...so sad..we have 2 leave each other...
hope 2 have tis type of camp again...
so we will get 2 meet each other again..
ya ya..i oso like e camp theme song...so nice..(REFINER'S FIRE)
n a verses 2 share:
whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for the men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.
-colossians 3:24,25
Hope all my dorm 1 friend can pass e P.B.B...
n oso 13th coy friend...
aiya..hope all 113 ppl hu have gona 2 e camp will pass...
tis will be better..haha...
k i will end here..
so tired...going 2 slp le...zzzzZZZZZ
ya ya..i oso like e camp theme song...so nice..(REFINER'S FIRE)
n a verses 2 share:
whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for the men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.
-colossians 3:24,25
Hope all my dorm 1 friend can pass e P.B.B...
n oso 13th coy friend...
aiya..hope all 113 ppl hu have gona 2 e camp will pass...
tis will be better..haha...
k i will end here..
so tired...going 2 slp le...zzzzZZZZZ
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11:08 PM
Thursday, June 22, 2006
tis is e last post be4 i go 4 my P.B.B camp...
2day i quarrel wif my father..he alway dun understand wat i wan...still say i nv listen 2 him...
say i tok back...wat is tis lo...im alway e one hu is wrong...y
he dun care how i feel lo...hai...y can't he give mii some freedom...
i jux wan 2 do e thing tat i wan 2 do...y can't he understand...so toopix..
i wan my freedom...where is mii freedom...
i hate my life...so fann so tired..n no freedom de..
i dun wan tis kind of life lo...
no freedom no life...
hu will understand wat i wan...
no one know when im happy when im crying..
cos im alway alone..alway on my bed...crying 4 help...
but one one 2 care..
when im sad i alway think of my grangmother
2day i quarrel wif my father..he alway dun understand wat i wan...still say i nv listen 2 him...
say i tok back...wat is tis lo...im alway e one hu is wrong...y
he dun care how i feel lo...hai...y can't he give mii some freedom...
i jux wan 2 do e thing tat i wan 2 do...y can't he understand...so toopix..
i wan my freedom...where is mii freedom...
i hate my life...so fann so tired..n no freedom de..
i dun wan tis kind of life lo...
no freedom no life...
hu will understand wat i wan...
no one know when im happy when im crying..
cos im alway alone..alway on my bed...crying 4 help...
but one one 2 care..
when im sad i alway think of my grangmother
she will always be there if i need her
but she had leave e world when im sec one...
i was so sad when i know it...
i really can't take it lo...
she take care of mii since im a baby
till im pri one..so long...
now she leave mii jux like tis..hai..
hai..no one know wat will happen tml
may be i die tml oso no one know...
going 2 slp le...2 tml must wake up at 5.45am..
n oso wan to wish i can get P.B.B!!
but she had leave e world when im sec one...
i was so sad when i know it...
i really can't take it lo...
she take care of mii since im a baby
till im pri one..so long...
now she leave mii jux like tis..hai..
hai..no one know wat will happen tml
may be i die tml oso no one know...
going 2 slp le...2 tml must wake up at 5.45am..
n oso wan to wish i can get P.B.B!!
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1:15 AM
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
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4:11 AM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
my family 4 Yc'05...e chua family rox...
haha...i look funny...
tis is my house...i oso got help hor...c..
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12:44 PM
a new day ...a new problem...hai..wat should i do..
i going 4 my PBB camp (something like GB camp) on wed... hai..
2 day i wake up at 9am...im think wat should i do next...
i just sited on my bed 4 very long...thinking of many many things...
i ask myself...wat is happening?wat should u do?wat is ture luv?
hai i really dun know...so tired...
then suddenly thought of wat my friend had say
2 day i wake up at 9am...im think wat should i do next...
i just sited on my bed 4 very long...thinking of many many things...
i ask myself...wat is happening?wat should u do?wat is ture luv?
hai i really dun know...so tired...
then suddenly thought of wat my friend had say
she say if u really like e person u should tell him
n if he really luv u he will wait 4 u...
no matter how long...how hard...
n she ask mii will i regret if i dun tell him..
i say i dun know...then
she tell mii 2 think throught my heart...
n if he really luv u he will wait 4 u...
no matter how long...how hard...
n she ask mii will i regret if i dun tell him..
i say i dun know...then
she tell mii 2 think throught my heart...
n follow wat i feel is right...
hai...will i regret...
hai...will i regret...
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4:30 AM
Monday, June 19, 2006
is a new day...but im so tired...
i tot true alot of think last night...
wat should i do...should i jux don't care
or should i tell him wat im thinking..
will i regret 4 wat im doing now...
it really hard 2 find someone hu love u so deep...
or care 4 u so much...
but i dun wan anyone 2 waste time on mii..
cos i know i can't give them wat they wan..
i scared wat if anything happen 2 e relationship
then i can't take it or somethink bad happen
then how?
i dun wan 2 be like last time
i tot true alot of think last night...
wat should i do...should i jux don't care
or should i tell him wat im thinking..
will i regret 4 wat im doing now...
it really hard 2 find someone hu love u so deep...
or care 4 u so much...
but i dun wan anyone 2 waste time on mii..
cos i know i can't give them wat they wan..
i scared wat if anything happen 2 e relationship
then i can't take it or somethink bad happen
then how?
i dun wan 2 be like last time
waste 2yrs+ 2 4 get him...
i really hard lo...c him wif other ger u will feel
dam hurt lo...n if e ger in oso ur friend u will hurt more lo...
so i dun wan a relationship tat won last long...n i dun think im ready 4 it...
to him..so i understand how she feel..
cos i try be4..n it really hurtz..
so i dun think is good to hurtz her again...
wat if i really lost her as a frined
wat should i do when i c her..how should i face her...
n other ppl...
all is problem always come 2 my mind...
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4:01 AM
finally i can take off on satday...tis is e 2nd time i off for tis week..
i went church in e morning at 1o..i tired till i fell asleep in the service...
i went church in e morning at 1o..i tired till i fell asleep in the service...
then i went for lunch...
tot of going some where but no one will go wif mii de..
so i went home at about 1.30 then stay at home 2 do home work..hai...so fann
A love i never felt
Held so strong and true
This love I feel when only I'm with you
The emotions I have these feelings begin
to start I know deep down
I must be true to my heart the love
I have for you stays so sweet every time
wat should i do???
i really dun know...
i saw her 2 day she dun look fine 2 mii
she look like she had jux cry e nite be4...
hai...wat should i do??wat i really wan??
i really dun know...
hu can tell mii wat should i do...
to him..pls leave mii alone..
i think is better 4 both of us n her...
tot of going some where but no one will go wif mii de..
so i went home at about 1.30 then stay at home 2 do home work..hai...so fann
A love i never felt
Held so strong and true
This love I feel when only I'm with you
The emotions I have these feelings begin
to start I know deep down
I must be true to my heart the love
I have for you stays so sweet every time
wat should i do???
i really dun know...
i saw her 2 day she dun look fine 2 mii
she look like she had jux cry e nite be4...
hai...wat should i do??wat i really wan??
i really dun know...
hu can tell mii wat should i do...
to him..pls leave mii alone..
i think is better 4 both of us n her...
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1:53 AM
Sunday, June 18, 2006
a tired day again...i wake up at 9am then went for cell group at 10am..
then went for work from 2.30pm till 11.30pm...
i m really tired of my life...wat 2 do?
y thing keep happen...y can't my life be like last time..
a lonely life a lonely person..i think tis is better for mii..
i know tat i am always holding onto a dream that won't come true..
i just wan 2 be myself...i really dun know wat i wan..
every time someone try 2 enter my life i feel so scared
i scared i will hurt them or they will hurt mii...
i really dun wan 2 get hurt again..
i dun wan anyone 2 wait 4 mii..
to him dun waste ur time on mii
dun wait 4 mii u will regrets..
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3:14 AM
Saturday, June 17, 2006
hai..so tired of my life..some time really feel like leaving tis place tis world..
hai...wat can i do 2 make u let go make u leave mii make u 4get mii or even make u hate mii...
i know u care 4 mii alot..thank..but we can only be friend..i oso hope tat we can be together..
hai...i know tat i am just holding onto a dream that won't come true..
hai..is ok de..every one happy can le.. by e way no one will know wat i wan n wat i think...
hai...wat can i do 2 make u let go make u leave mii make u 4get mii or even make u hate mii...
i know u care 4 mii alot..thank..but we can only be friend..i oso hope tat we can be together..
hai...i know tat i am just holding onto a dream that won't come true..
hai..is ok de..every one happy can le.. by e way no one will know wat i wan n wat i think...
to him i am really not e rite ger 4 u...
u can really find someone better than mii...
n thank alot 4 ur care...
i will remember it 4 life...
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3:22 AM
Friday, June 16, 2006
hai having stomach flu...sore throat...coughing...
so sian..wat 2 do...
everthing oso can't EAT...
but i dun care i just eat wat i wan...
since one no care y should i care toO...
hurt so bad..
i alway saw him in my dream...
aLmost every day..
we were 2gether very happy
goind some where..
having alot of fun..
only mii n him..
we were like couple...
he care 4 mii alot...
but i wake up i know it was only a dream..
how i wish i can stay inside my dream 4ever....
WIF HIM...
i know we won't be 2gether de...
so i won't think so must
i scared wat if one day he leave mii
wat should i do...
so now i m trying 2 keep a distance from him..
hope he will understand..
i dun wan 2 be hurtz again..or hurtz other ppl again..
alL i wan is alL mii friend 2 be HAPPY..
i dun mind 2 be e one hu is sad or wat
just really wan every ppl around mii 2 be happyer* then mii...
must be happy-go-lucky...
to him..
i know u care 4 mii alot
but u should know i won't be e best 4 u...
n i told u befor i dun wan 2 hurtz her n dun wan 2 lost a friend toO..
hope u know..n understand...
so dun stay on like that..let go..just go..4get mii.
so sian..wat 2 do...
everthing oso can't EAT...
but i dun care i just eat wat i wan...
since one no care y should i care toO...
hurt so bad..
i alway saw him in my dream...
aLmost every day..
we were 2gether very happy
goind some where..
having alot of fun..
only mii n him..
we were like couple...
he care 4 mii alot...
but i wake up i know it was only a dream..
how i wish i can stay inside my dream 4ever....
WIF HIM...
i know we won't be 2gether de...
so i won't think so must
i scared wat if one day he leave mii
wat should i do...
so now i m trying 2 keep a distance from him..
hope he will understand..
i dun wan 2 be hurtz again..or hurtz other ppl again..
alL i wan is alL mii friend 2 be HAPPY..
i dun mind 2 be e one hu is sad or wat
just really wan every ppl around mii 2 be happyer* then mii...
must be happy-go-lucky...
to him..
i know u care 4 mii alot
but u should know i won't be e best 4 u...
n i told u befor i dun wan 2 hurtz her n dun wan 2 lost a friend toO..
hope u know..n understand...
so dun stay on like that..let go..just go..4get mii.
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2:00 AM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
wooh..GB n BB a BIG FAMILY..
hah...tis pic dam long le..but i like tis pic cos have a lot of sweet sweet memories in side..YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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1:14 PM
i know it when iam 10yr old..i just nv ask..cos i dun wan 2 know why n wat happen..
just keep it 2 myself..but some time will feel bad..n will cry in my bed alone at nite..
aiya i think tat is very normal to be alone cos i am alway alone...
sad , happy , cry , heart broken , sick alL alone...
no one care @ alL n i oso dun wan any one 2 care..
nvm de..alL i wan is 2 be myself..
some time i oso dun even care 4 myself..
life make mii so fann..
some time feel like dying n
end my life..
YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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1:04 AM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
ping hui n mii at mac study
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3:02 PM
wat should i do thing happen so fast i just can't take it...
Y? think change so fast..
u were my best friend but now im so scared of u..
i dun wan 2 lost a friend like him..
my life is so fann..
hai..wan die le not fell well
SORE THROAT
hahahah i eat toO much
CHOCOLATE le la..
sian...
YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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2:45 PM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
wat a sad day...(crying)i was about 2 go 2 bed at 7+ 2 rest..but i nv..
i quarrel with him (my father) again...
tis time i really dun know wat i really did wrong lo...
when he came home from work his mood is nt good...
he start scolding miie i was like i did nth wrong wat...so i talk back...
i ask him wat did i do...then he started 2 say lot of rubbish thing from e past...
i was like those thing happen so long ago now he is like digging all e past out...
wat is tis..past is past lo...n i know i did wrong tat time but i change le lo...
but no one know...my mother told miie tat he is stress after work so jux don't care him dun say anything...i was like wat he is stress so he can put he anger on miie ar...n tis is nt e first time le lo..so i really can't take it le..i start talking back 2 him again...now i dun care le...he can put his anger on miie so y i can't...
i quarrel with him (my father) again...
tis time i really dun know wat i really did wrong lo...
when he came home from work his mood is nt good...
he start scolding miie i was like i did nth wrong wat...so i talk back...
i ask him wat did i do...then he started 2 say lot of rubbish thing from e past...
i was like those thing happen so long ago now he is like digging all e past out...
wat is tis..past is past lo...n i know i did wrong tat time but i change le lo...
but no one know...my mother told miie tat he is stress after work so jux don't care him dun say anything...i was like wat he is stress so he can put he anger on miie ar...n tis is nt e first time le lo..so i really can't take it le..i start talking back 2 him again...now i dun care le...he can put his anger on miie so y i can't...
I HATE HIM..
he confiscate my hp i dun mind le now wat he still wan...
i jux wan my FREEDOM..
he confiscate my hp i dun mind le now wat he still wan...
i jux wan my FREEDOM..
tat all...
(cryer)
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8:30 AM
