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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

tired tired tired...

reach-ed home about 12plus...practical was suppose to end at 1 but it just end-ed early...
so now going nth feel so sleepy...hmm...
just had my lunch,ahma off today so she cook-ed for mii(:
having netball training at 5pm...
todays oso having rock climbing which one should i go for???hmm...

have been eating quite alot in school tis few days...on diet pls wong yeok ling!!!hahas...lol
too bad lah school have too much yummy food & cafe le lah...ice-cream,chocolate,chicken chop all those chop chop chop...hahas...Fad must have chicken every day...
break nth todo we eat,eat & eat...toopix!
lesson is boring~i dun really understand wat she's teaching...sign...


if it's fated,it's fated...if nt,too bad...
*PS:
iwound'tgiveup
how long will it still take...???
i dun think i have e time anymore...
------------------------------------------------------


What Hurt Then Most-cascada

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
But i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret
But i know if i could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken

What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
And never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

argh toopix tis type of weather having flu...something wrong le lah...
off for tranning>>>




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3:20 PM




Monday, April 28, 2008

Backache!!!

training tml ): shit...
camp coming...
argh!!!
i got to study hard,train hard & play hard!!!(:
thanks for visiting mii(: [dia & GF]
thanks for all e care & concern... -to all...(mymmy JY & ms eunice)
i wan it BACK!!!
*PS:
u walked in to my dream everynite...



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10:28 AM




Friday, April 25, 2008

oh well, i'm nt feeling tat good now...i feel weak...

Karen & fad told mii tat i look-ed pale in school...
yah,toopix things came today...argh!!!
went it come,my back will ache like MAD!!!shite...
plus my whole body haven recover from e training is still aching...):


alright,today went to e Newater thingy,then to Expo for FHA fair(Food Hospitality Asia i think so...)e fair is from hall 1 to hall 7,there's alot of diff type of food, i love e most is e chosolate & e ice-cream(: u ppl should noe...hahas...e chocolate there is really v diff and very nice okie...hmm
after tat went home...i'm aching like shit...lol





fad say:u both are fated lah!
e school is like so big,but u still get to c him ones a day or even 2 or 3 time...
plus we are nt in e same block,is like so hard to get to c each other...
i agree...hmm
like today,reach-ed school i saw him,break time we were in e same cafe then lunch time saw he in e studium again...
almost ever day like tat for e pass 1week...lol...
are we tat fated? i'm thinking too much lah...
stop dreaming,will u...



*more then a friend,less then a lover...
*PS:
i'm goner give back everythings to u...








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8:56 AM




Thursday, April 24, 2008

it's u, who push mii to e end
i'm oso human...
i'll just treat u e way u treat mii...
u dun believe then forget it, dun need to keep asking & asking...


training is crazy!!!i'm like aching for e pass few days, but still i went for today's training...
today's training was in e rain was so cold...hmm,somethings happen whille training now thinking whether wanan continue...but somehow e IC noe tat i'm not right,so she tok-ed to mii after training till i my tears almost drop-ed...argh!!!

PE,swimming lesson will start 2 week later...omy!!!shite lah...i dun wan!!!

i'm tired,my whole body is aching like mad!!!
i'm lazy,i haven shower yet...argh!!!
*headache):

i just hate coming home...ppl are close to mii know y...


mood is damn bad tis days...
crying to slp eveynite...e feeling scuk okie...
*PS
i'm to blame, SORRY!!!
it's david(:



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10:45 PM




Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Running Away...
(sorry...)

argh,shit lah...
i'm tired so damn sleepy during lecturer,keep falls aslp...


LLA -Life Skills Learning Activities (not sure it's correct)
has to go learn something tat we nv try before...hmm
e.g:swimming!!!argh...
EIC-Essentials in Chemistry,

lecturer is a KILLING mii,dun really understand...hmm
IFS-Introduction to Food Science,
still all right....i think...

today had dragon boat training but i didn't join them...
just went for awhile then went off le...
tml there were be netball training hmm, i'll be going for e training ba...start at 5pm end 8 plus ba...





i look-ed tired look-ed sleepy, tis's wat karen told mii...
yup,i'm really tired...sleeply...
can't slp in e nite...cry-ed to bed,argh...
i HATE myself lah...toopix!!!
my eye look-ed so small/swollen in e morning...

i'm sure,things will still go on w/wo mii...
*PS:
6yr6mthfromnow...if tis's possible...




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9:52 PM





i say it i mean it & i'll do it...
believe it or not...(2872days...)


i'll keep myself v busy everyday...goner go for training to training...goner find jobs...i'll make myself stronger & stronger each days...

girlfriend & dia: sorry i won't be able to go back to GB...u should noe...u both JY!!! sorry...

*PS:
i'm sorry didn't noe he will call u...
i dun get it y he just dun like u lah...
i dun noe y thinks turn out like tat...
ahhhhhhhhh...so toopix lah...haizzz...
but whatever it's...
it maybe God's plan,it maybe fate...
wat i can say is only SORRY,SORRY & SORRY!!!...

i ones told u,u will hate mii one day...

i'm stubborn nomatter wat...

off for training...




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3:50 PM




Sunday, April 20, 2008

ahhhhh...i got nth say...
but only sorry...
i somehow know tis day will come...
pls dun be so nice to mii...
just dun give a damn on mii...
i'll feel better...
sorry!!!
Lord,i pray...



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11:25 AM




Saturday, April 19, 2008

e nite is always e hardest time to pass...

i can't slp...feel so lonely now,all aslp only left mii...
dad is nt home yet as he has OT to do...
just hang-ed up phone wif my him...
agrh,now i got so many things in mind...
GB,school,CCA,my dad & money...
(he dun wan mii to go back to GB to help out anymore...)

ahhhhhhhh.....):
can cry lah...
GF GF GF!!!dia dia dia...):
fan lah....toopix...
(i nv forget,idunwannaalwaysbeeoneto...)
understand!!!

omy omy...save mii from tearing pls...
argh...)':

i'm always looking good in e outside...i can smile,i can laugh,i can play,i can joke around...
but do u noe how i feel in e inside...
things always come to mind only in e nite,where there's is no one...
i dun noe how to share it wif ppl,even he/she is v close to mii...
somethings,i find it so hard to say it out...no matter to who...
suddenly think of mummy again,
i fell bad...i'm not a good daughter or a good sister...
ahhhhhhhhhhhh.........









it's raining heavily now...
having a bad sore throat...
my toes now is like blue black & swollen? and oso itchy lah...

我想过要放下,可是却不舍得就这样放气...



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Friday, April 18, 2008

Wat a deep cuts on my toes...):

How sad is tis, before e start of e telematch i injure myself first...lol
i have no ideal how come i'll miss e step and forget to live up my leg,hmm...heng i nv fall forward...hahas...if nt is like damn PS loh...hahs...e cuts keep bleeding non-stop for like 15min or so loh...heng abit more kanna my nails le...
ytd went for track oso fall drown on my back...we were to report at e school stadium then e chair is like thoes type u got to push it drown before u sit...something like those sits in cinema...so i push it drown and sit then so how i just stand up again,went i wanna sit back i forget got to push it drown...omy...heng my friend hold-ed mii...hahas i'm so CLUMSY so TOOPIX so BLUR lah...

okie,for e telematch...we're in e AHS team (u wanna noe wat is tis come ask mii) ...our team is e smallest among e 3 teams...there is like 3 round of games we got to play...then i play-ed e 3rd round...first 2 round was nt tat good we didn't score well,but for e 3rd round we win it back,we were e first in e 3rd round(: jump jump...hahas...
after tat was cheer leading,our cheer leading was not tat bad we got 2nd...(:
but tot we loss e first 2 round so we won't get top 2 le...but end up we got 2nd(((: happy happy...
shout till no voice le...hahas...
so samllest team dose nt mean we can't win okie...hahas...=P

hmm,so today end-ed about 12pm...change-ed & had our lunch in one of our school cafe...e food there was qutie cheap and nice(: had ice-cream too...love love...
after tat head to tpm...walk walk slack slack there till 4plus then bus-ed home...
i'm tired now...my toes still hurt): e cuts is like quite deep...
how am i going to go for parade tml???
how am i going to wear boots tml???
hmm...

omy, i realize there's actually quite a few good looking guy in my school too hahas...
a few from e business block and oso tec block...for my blook i think only e one from my class de ba...hahas...feddide...
omy,tat student leader from business block is cool lah...hahas...karen agree wif mii...everyone is wondering wat CCA he's in...lol




if we were a movie,u will be my BF...
CHOCOLATE FOR MIII pls...(:



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7:03 AM





I'm so e lazy now a days...hahas....

(17/06/08)
wake up late today,hmm...some more raining...
in lesson cold till can't tok...hahas...
but i'm no late for lesson...just in time(: lol...

went for track & netball today,just to see see look look...
i'm still more to dragon boat leh...even though i dun noe how to swim,hmm...
i just wanna try new sport...new things...as track & netball i play-ed & join-ed before le...and it's commom...hmm...hmm...

school is still alright now,hahas,classmate of mine is funny and friendly??? (some of them lah)
hmm,argh,swimming for PE,wat is tis man!!!
and oso rope course...(believe???)hahas...

hmm,there's is 2 module for tis sem...
EIC-Essentials in Chemistry
IFS-Introduction to Food Science

for mii i dun really have a Chemistry and a F&N background so is like quiet hard for mii to understand lah...then my class,more then half is from 'O'lvl or NA so they noe wat is going on...
hmm...

yeah yeah,tml there will be no lesson as we'll be having our telematch...cool huh...lol
it's start at 9.30 but i got to report at 9.15 to register first...

so got to wake up like 8am...hmm...
hahas...wake mii up okie...(:

alright,i should end here le...up-date next time went i'm not lazy ba...hahas...(:
nite nite,chocolate dreamzzz...


it's a nice song(: i think...
If We Were A Movie Lyrics
Artist(Band):Hannah Montana

Uh oh
There you go again talking cinematic
Yeah you!
You're charming, got everybody star struck.
I know
How you always seem to go
For the obvious instead of me
But get a ticket and you'll see

[Chorus:]
If we were a movie
You'd be the right guy
And I'd be the bestfriend
You'd fall inlove with
In the end we'd be laughing
Watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
Play the happy song

(Yeah)
Yeah, yeah
When you call me
I can hear it in your voice
Oh sure!
Wanna see me
And tell me all about her
La la
I'll be acting through my tears
I guess you'll never know
That I should win
An Oscar for this scene I'm in

[Chorus]

Wish I could tell you there's a twist
Some kind of hero in disguise
And we're together
It's for real
Now playing
Wish I could tell you there's a kiss
Like something more than in my mind
I see it
Could be amazing

[Chorus x3]



i need a new shoes for school...
i wanna find job,i wanna buy alot alot alot of things...hmm...
i noe some time i'm stubborn...
but i'm like tat...wat to do...



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12:30 AM




Wednesday, April 16, 2008

15/04/08
Dragon Boat,Netball or track???

hmm,e training for dragon boat is like 4days a week and including SAT...omy...tuff???
then as for Netball and track is 2days a week so is like still okie...and is on e week days...
wat should i take???still thinking...

school was nt tat good today...dun noe how to say...just nt good...):
hope tml will be a better day...
ooo,today i found out tat one of my classmate is oso an ex GB ger...

My class is big we have like 35 over ppl...My school is big too,till i can't find my lesson room...lol...
ooo,welll...we'll be having our so call 'interschool telematch' tis friday so every class is sending 5ppl for e match...hohohos i'm one of them(: lol...

tml lesson start at 8am till 4.30pm...
having pra and tok again...):
wat a long days!!!):

):sad today i should have went to explanade...hmm

time check-1am...but i'm still v awake...omy...how sia???
tml got to wake up like 6.30 or so...hmm

okie,shall end here le...
good nite,chocolate dreamzzz...(:

bring colours to my life...
girlfriend,e 6 years deal...
say long nt long say short nt short...lol
i haven even end e 2 years deal...sob...
we'll c wat happen after tat...hmm
*Ps:
(: lovelove,missmiss...lol
as time fly e feeling of being a 'friend' is here???
i'm blur...sometime i dun get e feeling right...???



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1:04 AM




Monday, April 14, 2008

School started le...):

i'm actually v excited de...but...nvm...
tml lesson start at 9am till like 4.30??
tml is oso CCA open house i think...

teacher bluff mii ask mii go school then end up ask mii go HQ then come back again!!!
argh!!!angry,angry,angry...

school fee is exp de loh...i need a job now...lol...

anw THANKS to yao hui...
he meet-ed mii to school...
then acc mii to dover(HQ)
then back to school again...
then acc mii to settle my school fee & my uniform???
then bring mii to my class...
(he skip-ed lesson to so call acc mii,hahas lol...)

hmm,my time table will be out only on wed...
wed having lab practical...): wat is tis???
got to buy lab coat & safety goggles...):
sian!!!



tired tired tired,lazy lazy lazy...

going to school alone tml): omy...sian de loh...

wake mii up tml okie...lol...hahas...




Pic(:


we're just too boring...(: but tis will kill our time...hahas...
nice nice!!!(:




just so not in e mood...
hmm,i thinking i'm going to fall sick soon...
now flu,sore throat,cough & headache...
haiz...
*PS:
is hard,really v hard...tired...
smile because u're happy,cry when u're sad...lol



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9:15 PM




Saturday, April 12, 2008

11/04/08...
No matter how hard i try i still fail...

i really dun noe wat i can to do to pls him or make him happy loh...
to not get scolded,
to not get nag-ed...
i really dun noe!!!
(i dun like being shouted for, e feeling suck...)

u say wat u wan,do u even think of how i'll feel after hearing wat u say...
i may not show it out,i may not care...
but i'm tearing inside...
and tears drop-ed after u leave...
dun u noe...

tot things will change after move-ed house...
yah,it change...
but something will nv change...
(e way he think,e way he speak)

he ask-ed mii,why i seem to hate staying at home/hate coming home...
i keep quiet,i dun noe how to tell him how i feel...
sometime i just dun feel e sense of belonging...nvm...watever...


dear God,i dun noe wat to do...
wat he say really hurt mii alot alot alot...
i can't stop crying till now...
i noe i'm wrong & always wrong...
i wanna change,i need time to...



cry-ed till so headache now...argh...
kill mii lah pls...





GF,i'm goner be alright...
*ps:
ican'tfeeluhereanymore...



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1:55 AM




Friday, April 11, 2008

黄钰琳(:
10/04/08
stayed at home alone for e whole day...
i'm so lazy tis few days, just dun feel like moving...hahas...
my whole body keep aching,making mii feel like just laying on e bed for e whole day...lol
hahas...hmm...
ooo,later having cell group...(:
hmm...
nth much to up-date le...till here...
i'm so bored at home...
can call mii or msg mii to acc mii okie...hahas lol...
bye bye...
chocolate dreamzzz...(: luv luv...hahas...
o gosh i wanna leant saxophone...hmm...hahas
^^^shia shia^^^
hohoho...i uv them most...(:

^^^ nya nya^^^
she is always like tat(:


girlfriend,dun think too much on wat he say...
he's still a small boy after all...
leant to live without him ba...
Be without you...



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12:55 AM




Thursday, April 10, 2008

My Notebook is dying soon!!!

rotted at home e whole day...
watch-ed tv...pack-ed e house???
hmm,nth much tat all...
omy,i'm use to e timing of sleeping late..like 3 plus....
school is starting next week...
how am i gonna wake up for school....hmm...
die die die...


i wan my 18 bDay to be out in e sea...
woho,cool...will it be real/true???hahas...



I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"...

Guitar,be my saxophone guy(:
[will yOu/can yOu...]

*ps:
i feel like i dun understand yOu...hmm...

木头人(:

我很天真觉得勇敢的心花最动人...
我一直在等着恋爱轰轰烈烈的发生...
我期待着因为有你让爱情能完整...



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12:41 AM




Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Pic from pass few days...(:
sore eye...):

^^^ Dia,will love tis...(:
wat are we thinking...hmm...

smile(:


***So speechless...so useless...

No one is perfect ,so do i...
i'm not ___ whoever so i can't stop___ for doing anythings...

as long as ___ is happy...

so speechless when u ppl ask mii y am i still holding on to it...
when i already somehow noe e ending...

(sometime i juxt dun wanna face it

i've try my best to do my part le...
And now watever it's i'll leave it to God...


*Thanks Gf for acc mii for e pass 2days...(:
Love u many mayn...hahas...
*nyDia-start school le wor, jia you in ploy(:
Love u many many too...hahas...


pls Dun ask mii things about him,i dun even now how he looks like,
how am i suppose to noe where is he...
maybe he is just a passes by, for e past 18yrs...



where is my saxophone guy...???
爱来过...
*ps:
wat ever e out come will be like i'll bless it...



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Sunday, April 06, 2008

5/4/08(sat)
tis is wat happen after parade...
hahas...
Pic will do....(:
i'm lazy...


tis is our lunch cum dinner...(:


wahahas...(: yumm yumm...
my WCD!!!...(white chocolate dream)

Dia & Jo...
GF & MII(:
e N,J,Y(:
luv them...but they bully mii...):hahas...
i'm in simei AFS(:


Thanks God
Thanks God
Thanks God
Thanks God
Thanks God
Thanks God

Thanks God
Thanks God
Thanks God

Thanks God
Thanks God
Thanks God

Thanks God Thanks God Thanks God Thanks God Thanks God Thanks God!!!(:
[haix...my school fee is so exp loh...is like 4* much...):
compare to Singapore Citizen & Permanent Resident...argh...YYY?]


i'm in luv wif saxophone,but i dun noe how to play it/use it???
anyone noe???
hmm...
*ps:
nonono,is not "yi lai"...
I sing, "Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
And every night I miss you I can just look up and
know the stars are holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight" ...



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3:00 AM




Saturday, April 05, 2008

Nth much PIC will do...(:
4/4/08-friday...

e N,Y,J(: <<<

e Y & N(:

e Y & J(:

e N & J(:

^^^ GF,is not a good photographer...ops...hahas... ^^^

^^^ hmm,i'm just trying to act toopix...hahas(: ^^^

(: smile...
-----------------------------------------


Tonight Lyrics
Artist(Band):FM Static

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you SAT AND told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

[i like e lyrics of tis song:)...]

i'm tired,ytd slp only at 5.30am...
then wake up at 11am...
head-ed to GF house,then to school for speech day...
*well done girls & boys(:
hmm,dun feel so right now...not gonna continue le...
[haix...e toopix letter is still nt here yet...argh...]

[我看不開 也放不開
因為我曾見過愛情真的盛開
我要等待 一直等待
等那一個夜晚總會贏回來...

寂寞喧嘩 我不害怕
因為我只聽得見對你的牽掛
世界很大 會容得下 我這小小
小小頑固的信仰 你有沒有過承諾
我已忘了 那已不重要了
反正我都會守侯 在夢中守侯 我最唯一
最美的夢...

如果需要種勇氣起來交換回憶 就讓淚蒸發
像這雪花 和我一起在愛中被融化]
***"親愛的, 那不是愛情..."
*PS:
i dun wan it to become "yi lai"...I DUN WAN!!!
[back ach...))):]



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