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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

back from work le...wake up at 1++ but still feel very tired n headache...plus im still having flu...=( dun wanna to wake up de lo but can't cos gt work....ytd slp at 3++ very early le lo cos i normaly slp at 4++ de..but still very tired...
boss nv come to close e shop...so we close ourself[nydia n mii]...2day dunno is gt alot of thing to do or we are slow...we normaly by 11 or 11.10 jiu clean hao le but 2day we clean till 11.45 like tat...then we miss e last bus so gt to take MRT back...sian lo gt to walk home alone again n im scared lo...=(
im day dreaming n thinking of something jux now when im working wif e uncle...he ask mii to help him do thing then after a while i jiu 4get wat he say le then he wanna mii to mix e thing i oso 4get..he say im dream heehee...no lo is jux tat gt too many thing to do then i 4get lo...heehee tis is wat i told him...=)
my hand kanna cut again =( by e mushroom can...when i wanna open e can wif e can-opener...argh!!!
at first nt pain de but after a while jiu start to pain le...then when i wanna wash hand even pain...
then i more cut dun know come from where de...


i dun need those word to make mii feel happy...
do yOu ever think of how i feel???how i kanna scold kanna kp becos of yOu???
i try no to show it out...i keep e pain in myself...
i dun wanna tell yOu cos i dun wan to worry dun wan yOu to know...
understand???
dun yOu know yOur every word i take it n put it in my heart deeply...


im tired le going to slp le..tml as in later still gt work...
[off to my sweet lala dream land =)]nite nite ppl...rest early...tc=)
gt one song really nice tml i will den upload e lyrics n e song...



nth can change mii...
im like tat like it or NT...
hate mii if yOu wan...i dun really care...
waiting,hoping & praying...

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



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3:04 AM




Monday, October 30, 2006

im back to post le...did nt post 4 a few days le gt really no mood to post lo...
IM SCARED!!! i dun wanna to move...*crying...=( really DUN WAN!!!
[jux dun know y when my papa or mum say "we maybe will be moving"
i will feel so fann n wanna cry]

will be moving if papa really lose his job...or papa can't take it...
cos his boss always trying to find problem wif he...haiz...
all my friend asking mii u moving house u should be happy wat why u so sad
moving house im happy but i dun wanna move till so far...bedok is far from here lo...
here have all my memorise...all e fun time,sad time n all my friends...i stay here almost 8 yrs le...jux dun wanna move la...understand!!! but if really have to...i oso can't do anything...
haiz now wat i can do is to wait till e time come lo...

tis few day i have being working from 6pm-11.30pm...but tml as in later will be working from 3pm-11.30pm...working wif nydia but she will come after 6pm....
im quite tired now tis few days did nt slp well n always slp after 3...dun know y i jux can't slp...
still having flu "wo hen xin ku...=(" i had a dream ytd...tat dream really make mii scared n feel so useless...im scared yOu will leave mii...

argh...papa say i nv think of e family be4 i wanna do anything or buy anything...
i gt think 4 e family lo...if i nv think of e family i won't be give money n doing house work lo...if i nv think of e family i won't go out to work lo...if i nv think of e family i won't care n think so much to help lo...i jux wanna spend some time wif my friend , going out wif them n buying thing i like... tis is wat i wan...dun u know???dun u understand??? im jux spending my own money nt urs... everytime i get my pay u will take alway from mii...i did nt say any lo...i jux say i oso need money 4 myself...then e most u will give is $50-$80...n told mii nt to any how spend...im ok wif it i dun mind give e family money...but wat u say was i did nt care 4 e family...wat is tis lo...TOOPIX!!! why watever i do to u seen so wrong??? do u know it hurt when u say i did nt care 4 e famliy...


slping soon le tml still gt to work...nite nite ppl...
[off to my sweet lala dream land]

waiting,hopeing & praying
[wat do i mean to yOu???]



"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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3:10 AM




Friday, October 27, 2006

erm ok im back from work le...argh...my hand kanna burn again then after tat i nearly fall down =(...toopix la...haiz...then now dun know y i become so no mood...haiz haiz haiz...i jux need some1 to be by my side n listen to wat i say...
[can i know how much i means to yOu???]


haiz..is alreadly like 2 week le...
e present i haven give him...
everytime wanna give him but jux dun know how to tell him...
argh!!!WO DE XIN HEN FANN...dun know wat to do...
do yOu know yOur every word every action means to mii alot...
[i will keep on waiting till e time come...nomatter wat happen i jux wanna c yOur smile...]


having flu now...feeling very cold oso...wo hen xin ku=(...
now wat i wan is jux to c yOu...but is so impossible=(
haiz...going to my sweet lala dream land soon le...nite nite!!!tc...

i miss yOu so much!!!
[yOu r jux special to mii=)]

fOr yOu i will...if i can...
waiting,hoping&praying...
GOD BLESS!!!



"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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4:05 AM




Thursday, October 26, 2006

back from VIVO CITY...=)...e place is really huge lo...i meet nydia n mum(miss jia ying) at 2 reach there about 3 i think...then first reach there saw a candy shop woow!!!...it really sell alot of sweet n chocolate lo n all r so diff from wat we can find outside...wanna buy CHOCOLATE de but nydia stop mii 4 buying=( cos she say we eating dinner later if i buy le i will eat then eat le jiu can't eat dinner le so dun let mii buy=(...nvm...i will go buy next time...=P...after tat went shopping it was really big dun know where to start so jiu anyhow walk lo...nydia n i wanna buy bagpack so keep look 4 it but dun have e bagpack we wan so keep walking around lo...then i saw e purple n gray jackets i wanted to buy last time from I.P zone hahas...but now i c so many ppl wearing tat jackets so maybe nt going to buy le=(...hehee saw one jackets from everlast(i think)quite nice n nydia oso like it...maybe after we get our pay we will go buy...haiz only a maybe cos e jackets cost 2 or 3 day of our work days...($99)...aiyo we wanna buy alot of thing leax...we wanna buy bag wanna buy shoes wanna buy jeans wanna buy tat jackets argh our pay gone le la...=(..heehe we have e same thing to buy...

after tat meet ms eunice at about 4++...then went shopping again...she know we wanna buy jeans so she help us find...haha really like our mum lo...lol...then when coffee bean to have a drink and we chatted oso...after tat when walk walk again then 6.30 when spizza 4 dinner=)
spizza n pizza is nt e same...i think spizza is nicer heehe...then after dinner we all jiu go home le...
oOo ya must THANKS miss eunice 4 e coffee bean n e spizza...she pay de heheh=) THANK YOU!!!!


hiaz im tired le wanna go slp le...nite nite!!!tc...sweet dream!!!
[off to my sweet dream lala land=)]
i jux love yOu more each days...=)


fOr yOu i will...if i can...
waiting,hoping& praying...


"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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3:45 AM




Wednesday, October 25, 2006

back from work le...haiz...jux gt sosososo no mood :'(
toopix la i jux hate how i feel now...TOOPIX!!! i hate it jux hate it la...
I WAN CHOCOLATER!!! I WAN GREEN TEA!!! I WAN TO DIE!!!=(
i wan yOu!!!i wanna go ESPLANADE wif yOu!!!i wan to c yOu NOW!!!
can i??? i jux can't...it is impossible...haiz...argh...crying* i wish yOu were here wif mii...hu will understand how i feel now??? no1 will...i have being working like mad...but wat i wan i jux dun get it n wat i dun wanna happen jux happen...WHY??? it jux hurt mii so deep when i hear wat HE{papa}say...im like dam loss now dun know wat to do dun know wat is happening...



i can't slp again...i wish i can c yOu now but is so impossible...=(
im always thinking of yOu!!!do yOu know???i MISS yOu...
my hand kanna burn jux now when im working...now still quite pain=(
erm later nv work going VIVO CITY wif mum{miss jia ying} n nydia...
meeting them 1++ scared i can't wake up again...then wanna slp now but can't...
argh!!! sian...oOo ya all e best to those who r taking 'O' lvl...GooD luck!!!=) JIA YOU!!!



[yOu r jux so special to mii=)]
yOu have walk into my life n i have fall in so deep ...
is tis true??? or mi i jux thinking too much???
I don't want to let yOu down
I don't want to lead yOu on
I don't want to hold yOu back
From where yOu might belong...
i DUN WAN...

to mii they jux look so sweet so happy!!!being together....=)

fOr yOu i will...if i can...
[muakz muackz!!!tc=)]
waiting,hopeing&praying...
GOD BLESS...
[sweet lala dream land only mii n u=)]

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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4:00 AM




Tuesday, October 24, 2006

haix im back from work le=(...now i jux dun have e mood to do anything haix im sad i feel so toopix!!!
2day wake up at 2+ then feel hungry but gt nth to eat so did nt eat lo...erm i always skipped breakfast , lunch n some time skipped dinner oso cos wake up late nth to eat dun feel like eating n im oso working...even at my work place there is alot of food but everyday c e same thing oso sian no need to eat oso full le...hahas....good le like tat can save money =) But mum always nag at mii says if i continue like tat i will give gastric pain...hahas so i always tell her i eat le so she won't nag at mii=P...

haiz sian gt nth to do now...can't slp [ imwaiting=( ]
im full now when to 313 to eat wif ying si im dam hungry lo jux now nv really eat a
decent meal...hahas then kanna nag by alot of ppl =P...

im tired now...going to my [sweet lala dream land] soon le...=)
nite nite ppl.... [muackz muackz 70^3 yOu=) rest well n tc]

[yOu r jux so special to mii=)]

fOr yOu i will...if i can...
waiting,hoping&praying...
w!55 yOu...

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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4:00 AM




Monday, October 23, 2006

BACK from work le...argh my hand my leg my eye dam pain=(
plan to wake up at 9am de but dun know y wake up at 7++ very early rite???
so nvm wanna go back to slp de but can't de jiu go bath watch tv then meet nydia when service 2gether ...=) after service when SSC to 4 lunch then went home change le go to work=( at 2++

erm ok i really scared of tat guy...i dun know him but he seen to know mii he add mii in msn add mii in friendster n he oso send mii message through friendster...dun know where he find mii de???argh he oso gt walk pass my shop sometime or come n buy thing n tok to mii when im working i scared till always must hide inside when i saw him...jux now he gt come buy thing n he like wanna tok to mii but i jux smile at him n walk away then be4 i close e shop i saw he again OMG!!!im dam scared lo so i smile at himn walk away again...=( er nt only him lo still gt 1 more guy he always stand outside my shop n look inside e shop keep smiling at mii when i ask him wat he wan...then he will say oOo nth jux looking...argh jux dun like lo everytime like tat...toopix!!!

ok im now tired le wanna go slp le..nite nite ppl...sweet dream!!!=)
[off to my sweet lala dream land]


i jux luv to c yOur smile=)
cos now yOu have make mii fall so deep
so i jux can't stop loving yOu more each day...





fOr yOu i will...if i can...
waiting,hopeing&praying...
GOD BLESS...
"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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2:55 AM




Sunday, October 22, 2006

back back back im BACK from work....my eye very pain now =( so itch... wahaha THANKS GOD!!! erm ok im like dam scared to tell my papa tat im going to church tml cos he will seriously say NO de...so i prayed to GOD jux now be4 i call my papa...wahaha..then wat my papa say ok but 2nite must rest early n slp early cos tml i still gt to work...heeh im dam haapy =)=) so call nydia n tell her tat i can go know wat she say tat she oso can go...wahahah!!!!
finally can...great going back to church tml=)=)...waiting 4 tis day dam long le...now i only hope tat i can go to church every sunday...will keep praying...

erm 2day wake up at 9.20am bath then when to meet nydia to go mum(miss jia ying)house 4 cell group...after call group when s.p buy CHOCOLATE n when mac to eat ICE-CREAM...then jiu when home rest cos gt work wat...

ok now i think i should go rest n slp le cos i promises my papa will rest early...so going to offline soon le...going to my [sweet lala dream land]....nite nite ppl=)...




W!55 yOu...
[fOu yOu i will]
waiting,hopeing&praying...
GOD BLESS...

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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1:55 AM




Saturday, October 21, 2006

im off to work le!!!!
byebye...tc ppl!!!=)
w!55 yOu
[fOr yOu i will]
waiting,hopeing&praying
"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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5:15 PM





back from work le...ping hui ,melvin n mum(miss jia ying)they came n find us...=) they waited 4 us n we took e train home cos no bus le...
2day was quite tired gt so many ppl...mii n nydia work till wanna die le...we started work at 6 did nt stop cooking till 10 lo...my hand dam tired n oso kanna brun =(...
arghhh....dun know wat to do now i jux can't slp even im tired...
[im always waiting]
mi thinking too much??? arghh...=(
i dun wanna yOu to pei mii wait jux wanna c yOur smile...

later gt cell group 10.30am at mum(miss jia ying)house then oso working at 6pm...
argh trying to go to slp jux now but jux can't...haiz...
[now im off to my sweet lala dream land=) {will c yOu there}]
GOD BLESS!!!





[stars aRe blind]
[iw!55yOu]
waiting,hopeing&praying...


"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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3:20 AM




Friday, October 20, 2006

off to work!!!!!

great today will be working wif NYDIA =)
erm will be meeting her soon...
bye bye =)

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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5:15 PM





haix sian did nt go out 2day stay at home to pack my thing n my room...wake up at 11.30 then when back to slp till 4 then wake up...my papa told us tat maybe moving house end of tis yr haix i DUN WAN to move i stay here 4 like 8 yrs le then now wan mii to move argh i DUN WAN la.... im sad=(...


ppl always ask mii y i wanna work
then work le always say no money...
erm i work 4 my family nt only 4 myself
my mother need money to c doc n only my papa is working
he can't pay 4 everything so im only e one hu can help so help lo...
working n giving them money is nth wat i wan is more freedom n understanding...
i wan freedom...

Up in the skies, I look very carefully to see your face. I wonder if you're there, I wonder if tonight you're thinking of me. I just want to tell you that looking at the stars makes me think of you. By looking at it I just want to be where you are, and hold you tight and never let go!!!

tml still gt work going to slp soon le...=( i really dun wanna to move...DUN WAN...haiz...off to my sweet lala dream land....nite nite ppl...GOD BLESS!!!


always falling in love with yOu
3 words with just 1 meaning
I LOVE yOu...

fOr yOu i will...if i can....
w!55 yOu...
[waiting,hopeing&praying]
"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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3:30 AM




Thursday, October 19, 2006

im tired le dun wish to post wat happen to day will post tml if i still rmb...


Be some1 yOu like
nOt be some1 HE like
dun do something jux becos HE want yOu to
learn to be yOurself
HE should LOVE what yOu aRe
nOt what HE want yOu to be

thing have change every1 have oso change...
but my LOVE to HIM nv change [y?]
yOu r still in my heart...[y?]


dun say u LOVE her when u dun mean it
dun say u will only LOVE her when u r jux lying
dun say u will nv leave her when u r leaving her
dun make her fall deep when u r jux fooling her feeling
dun make her cry if u really LOVE her
dun make her do all those toopix things 4 u if u dun really LOVE n care 4 her
*DUN MAKE a PROMISE to her when u will break e promise...


im really tired now...sleeping soon le...going to my[sweet dream lala land]
[maybe HE is nt e one mi looking 4 n not e 1 who really know wat i want n wat my dream is][erm e thing is still wif mii thinking of give it to him but suan le ba...]
waiting, hopeing n praying 4 e time ti come...


[fOr yOu i will...if i CAN...]


"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
sHe lived wiTh hOpe wHen yOu PROMISE
3:45 AM




Wednesday, October 18, 2006

woow..im back!!!quite tired wake up at 9am when ping hui call actually wake up at 8.30 de but too tired so fall aslp again...then wake up bath le jiu when out to meet her then came home at 2++ then rest 4 awhile 5++ jiu go work le...argh tis few days slp nt more then 6 hours always slp at 4++ in e morning them wake up 10++....tis few days e wherther oso nt tat good make mii feel sick n tired...n oso will fell dizzy=( when i work...
erm ya going back to school tml...n is e last time going back 4 school things...so sad=(
tml will take alot alot of pic wif my friend to keep as a memoriess of them...will nv 4 get e time we spend 2gether will miss them de...
erm i think i will go slp first le im dam tired le n tml oso gt work...=(
n still have to wake up early to go school =( so bb..tc ppl..=) nite nite
[going to my sweetlaladreamland=)]


imstillwaiting...
nwillkeepwaiting...
tilletimecome...
butyOudunwaitcosifeeltatidunworthyOuwaiting...



[40568308*]
fOr yOu i will if i can...i mean it!!!
[jux let go ba...yOu happy i happy]

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
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3:10 AM




Tuesday, October 17, 2006

back from work le...my leg muscle dam pain stand too long le la ytd[14huors]...every one say i why so toopix why wanna work 4 so long???i say le wat if can work 24 hours i dun mind i jux dun wanna STAY AT HOME!!!!
luv my blog song[never let yOu go] ying si send mii de she say nice n is really nice lo...is like how i feel now haix..my tears started rolling down from my eye after listen to tis song arghh!!!feel really heart pain really loss ...i told myself i must be strong but i really jux can't stop my tears 4 rolling down...feel like leaving tis place really...[i can't take it le la]
argh dun have e mood to post le...feel dizzy now going to off my laptop soon n rest le hope can fall aslp fast[wanna go my sweetlaladreamland]...tml will be pei-ing ping hui go interview so must wake up at 8.15...ok will stop here le bb tc...sweetdream!!!
[i cryed again im still nt strong][im waiting 4 e time to come]


iwanyOutobehappydunwannacyOu
saddunwannacyOuregret...
dunwannacyOukannascoldbymypapa
dunwannayOutowait4miidunworthit
yOucanfinesomeonemoreworthit..
I DUN WAN!!!ijuxwannacyOursmile...
ifyOureallyluvmiijiuletgoba
idunwannacyOufallsodeepbutendupnth...
itwillbebetterithink...





[40568308*]
fOr yOu i will if i can...
[im SORRY...jux let go ba]
[it really dun worth it]


"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
sHe lived wiTh hOpe wHen yOu PROMISE
3:30 AM




Monday, October 16, 2006

woow...i back to post le ytd did not post reach home 12++ le then was quite tired bath ,watch tv wif my mum then jiu when slp at 2++ le...2day wake up at 7++ cos 2day i go open e shop at 9am...wahahas....2day i worked 14 hours from 9am to 11.30pm cool mah...was dam tired in e morning la cos i 1 person only n no tok to mii so feel sian n sleepy=x...then si jie came at 2pm finally she come n ya her friend oso come today 4 training...so gt 2 ppl pei mii le so i dun feel sian le heehe.. my boss tot i was jux playing n joking wif her cos i told her i can work from 9am to 11.30pm if they need mii to...i tok them i can ta han de dun worry i won't die here de...then all say mii siao how can i stand 4 so long n is like quite hot too...but i think was ok la nt everyday wat only 1 week 1or 2 time so nvm de la...erm but 2day wherther was really nt good i tok will rain but nv n my leg dam pain lo n still have to stand so long...i kanna 2 cut by e can-opener n 1 cut by dun know wat la dam pain lo...nvm really eat anything since ytd afternoon i only keep drinking GREEN TEA n HONEYDEW MILKSHAKE...Till jux now my boss buy food 4 mii then i eat dun know y tis few days keep dun feel like eating anything even im hungry...i siao liao here pain there pain...old le la haiz...my work place gt alot TOOPIX ppl always walk pass my shop n disturb mii...keep calling mii then say all those TOOPIX to mii...argh really dun like lo...
will be working tml oso 3pm to 11.30 n tml nydia will be coming 4 training hahas good got she pei mii i won't be sian le =)...i will be e one training her hahas feel funny training my own friend...


now having slight headache...=( i think im too tired le la...
but i dun wanna go to slp so early... [im waiting...]

nvchatwifhim41daylewonderingwhereis 'him'
wat'he'isdoinghowis'his'hand...
haizepresentstillwifmiiwannagivehim
butdunknowhowto...
ermokhejuxcameonlinebutwhenofflinele...
haiz...watmidoing la...didireallyfall4'him'le???

it had been such a long long time since i last went to church...
how i wish i can go church every sunday...haiz will keep praly hard...
i miss going church...=(





[40568308*]
fOr yOu i will if i really really really can...
[hu have change u or mii???]

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
sHe lived wiTh hOpe wHen yOu PROMISE
3:30 AM




Saturday, October 14, 2006

erm jux reach home nt long...feel really bad now but i got no choice to do tis...wanna go wif yOu de but if i really go wif yOu i dun think i will be here posting...n i told u before dun come n wait 4 mii i dun worth yOu waiting... haiz...4 get it im always in e wrong i dun wanna explain any more le im tired of explaining No one will understand de only my close friend n theng ong will know wat is going now...in e morning was my papa now was yOu...argh wat can i do??? one told mii nt to one wanna mii to...ok any way 2day then is his bDay...nt ytd...[tis show tat i dun understand him at all even his bDay i oso dun really know when....]



HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
to yOu...=)
all e best in everything u do
may ur wish can come true...
n must tc hor...
GOD BLESS yOu...=)
[Dui.Bu.Qi]


do yOu know i really got alot to tell yOu to say to yOu
is jux tat i can't do tat now...
im waiting 4 e time to come too...
do yOu understand???

im trying to keep my dream sweet dun wish to destroy it again...
maybe i really jux need more time to cool down n think about it
can tis dream by true...or will it end up like before...
still wondering should i give or nt...
argh my leg dam pain now...e wherther really nt good..=(
gtg slp now le tml gt cell group at 7.30am [at Mac if im nt wrong]dam early lo...
fOu yOu i will...if i really really really can...
[40568308*] [im sorry!!!]
[jux let go ba i dun worth it]
"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



YYY ::相爱到最后 我们变成朋友.
sHe lived wiTh hOpe wHen yOu PROMISE
2:50 PM




Friday, October 13, 2006

argh TOOPIX!!! slp till 11.30 some1 call home i when to ans then is papa hu call ...TOOPIX la...i ans e call he jiu started K.P mii...argh!!! kanna K.P again wat did i do wrong again i really dun understand lo...my mood now dam nt gd lo...dam angry...eveything oso mii watever i do oso seem wrong...dun like staying at home feel so alone even when all of them r at home...i dun really tok to my family only to my sis...how i wish i can work 24 hours so i dun need to go home even need oso go home slp le jiu go work...hahas...if 1 day i really die at home i think no 1 will know...no 1 will even care...



why can't i jux be e ger tat i will be???
watever i wan i can't get it...
watever i dun wish to happen jiu happen...
how i wish i nv come to singapore i wanna go back malaysia
because of my mum i nv leave tis house...i dun wanna c her sad so i always try nt to quarrel wif my papa...
but argh 4 get it...TOOPIX!!!

dun think will give him le...
after hearing alot alot of thing from some ppl...
really feel so useless n TOOPIX...
feel like a fool..


going to work later...dun think will post 2nite...dun think will online oso...
will c how...really got NO MOOD...

[40568308*]
[Heartbeat]


"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



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erm ok im tired now...stand till my leg dam pain n e wherther oso nt tat gd =(...working wif si jie jux now she is a new worker she work 4 erm 3 week le i think...ya!! she when home after she ans a call from her sis saying tat she got to go home now cos of some family problem i think...she all most cryed...scared mii...then she went off at 8.30 left mii only =( then nvm my boss came at 9++...hope tat nth happen to si jie n her family...will oso pray 4 her...
erm ya i when s.p at 1++ to buy tat thing n continue making...i oso buy some other thing to give him...but now dun feel like giving him le...haiz...my friend surpport mii to give him but i really feel FUNNY la...n oso a bit scared...argh!!!dun know la will c how lo...maybe will give maybe nt...anyway thanks my friend for ur surpport...=)
im tired but can't slp...im thinking too much le la...arghh!!!
dun know wat to do now...got nth to do n got no VCD to watch
maybe i should go try sleeping...
hope can go to my sweet lala dream land fast...=)
fOu yOu i will...if i really really really can...
[40568308*] [heartbeat]
[muackz muackz!!!]
[should i or should i nt give???]
praying hard...
w!55 yOu
"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



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Thursday, October 12, 2006

argh TOOPIX!!! ytd reach home after work wanna on my laptop de but dun know where my papa take my laptop go...so TOOPIX then so argh nvm...waited 4 call till 1.45 but jux nv call =(
dam sian lo gt nth to do can't slp...went to call ping hui n ying si to chat, haix they both watching VCD...i got no VCD to watch le =( waitting 4 my princess hours part 2...chatted 4 a while then im dam hungry nv really eat for e whole day i jux drink GREEN TEA...

before i when to work went to IMM 4 interview...erm 4 mii quite sad la i can 't work cos im a malaysian...but nvm i oso dun really wish to work there is like far n then pay is nt really high starting pay only $4per/hours then after two week c how u perform if u perform well they will rise ur pay to $4.50per/hours...now my work place better my pay now is $4.50per/hours my boss say if i continue to work there she will rise my pay n my work place no very far only at yishun....no only tat my boss oso treat mii v.good she know i always nv eat so will buy food 4 mii or bring mii to eat after work...

really dam hungry last nite...took bus home ytd cos my boss nt free to come so i close e shop n when to interchage to take bus....then saw wei sheng n shuan so took e same bus home wei sheng wanna go 313 eat de but shuan dun wan so jiu nv go eat lo...reach home oso nth to eat bath le wanna go slp so won't feel hungry but can't slp...so watch tv till 4++ then when to bed trying to slp but can't so listen to song n waited 4 dun know how long then i fall aslp...

wake up at 10.30 thinking should i continue to slp or go to buy tat thing n continue making...argh friday is coming...how???i got i more day n i gt to make 127...ok 127 4 mii is nth but i make le will he think tat im TOOPIX...argh i dun know la...feel TOOPIX by give 'him' tat thing...dun really feel like giving 'him' le...im useless i can't do anything better arghhh...
should i give or should i nt give???
erm ok maybe i will go n buy n conutinue making but...
er i dun think i will give ba...if i nv give maybe i will brun it away...


haahas i think theng ong have found his TRUE LOVE le n now going well...GOOD!!! so he won't be sad n feel alone le...=) theng one :if u really found HER u must treasure and cheriish HER hor dun let HER go again...=) wait!!! u good lo u haven tell mii hu is ur dear??? btw hope can chat wif u soon really miss chatting wif u=) GOD BLESS YOU TWO...


going to work later...hope i come back my papa won't take my laptop away...
GOOD BLESS...=)



fOu yOu i will...if i really really can...
[40568308*] [beautiful soul]
[im jux bring TOOPIX mi???]
w!55yOu



"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

last nite offline at about 3.45am trying to slp early...laid on the bed jux can't slp so listen to song then dun know how long later jiu fell aslp....then wake up at 12 when ping hui call she say MR TAN sms her say tat e letter we ask him to write de he write hao le so he ask us to go take....so when school at 2+ then chatted wif MR LIM till 3+...went chong phang cause ping hui wanna cut n dye her hair, so long lo i waited...then after tat wanna go eat e nasi lenak de but end up nv cause of ping hui de XING FU lol...nvm u all won't understand de...hahas=)n ya i oso saw my pri school friend [xue li] there at chong phang she becoming more n more chio le i hardly recognize her when i saw her...she really change alot...=)
then when back to s.p wanna go interview de but nv cause we under age they only wan 18 n above =(...
going back to work tml...=) nv work 4 2 week le miss them heehe...
ya before going to work will be meeting ying si n ping hui go IMM for interview...

OMG!!! dam ps lo..=X..i was chatting wif a guy jux now arghh tot tat he is my pri school friend
so chated for a whlie then he keep say funny thing to mii....then he asked mii somethink then i found out tat he is serving in NS now...argh OMG...he is nt my pri school friend...but his name oso wei cong so i tot he is...arghhhhh!!!!=X im dam TOOPIX...

CHOCOLATE from my boss...dam big lo...
e PIG my grandma buy for mii...cute rite???i haven eat...too cute dun feel like eating...haaha=)
got some pic from dun know la...but e place look really nice!!!

nice rite???i dun know where e place is...u know???
dam nice lo i wanna go there...=)




only say e 3 magic word [i LOVE yOU]
when u really mean it...
i dun know wat to do now...
feeling funny feeling nt rite
can't slp every nite
dun have e mood to do anything
haix...feeling really useless...



ok now is oso my two freind bDay...HENG LI JIE & HENG LI HAN....
wanna wish them HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! n all e best in everything they do...=)
[sweet 16th] GOD BLESS YOU TWO =)

erm will stop here le dun know wat to write le...
will try going to slp...going to my sweet lala dream land =)
[must tc of urself...dun always say mii u oso...GOD BLESS yOu]

fOr yOu i will...if i really can...
[jux let mii go, im loss]
wi55 yOu...
"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



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Tuesday, October 10, 2006

erm watch princess hours till 5+ in e morning then slp...wake up at 9++ cause to help justin to do thing 4 his ger =P...wanna go back to slp de but wake up le jiu can't slp le...
now im dam tired but i jux can't slp something making mii feel fann....=(


hu can i talk to...
hu will listen to mii...
hu will understand mii...
hu will come n take mii away...
hu can help mii...
hu hu hu???
arghhh i jux feel like crying
& pour all out to e LORD...
i can't take it le la...[killing mii, can i jux die]
my brain going to burst le...so pain!!!=(
i really got alot to say,but i jux dun know how to say it out...
im trying to say it out sometime but my friend jux dun seem to care...
then wat can i do, i can't force them to listen to mii if they dun wish to
i feel really useless sometime...i can't do anything...haix...


"i dont like you, cause i love you.
i dont want you, cause i need you.
i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will die for you.
i wont live for you, but i will live with you.
i wouldnt do anyting cause i will do everything.
i chose my life, cause you're my life. "


hmm..ya now is 10 oct le n is oso HOH KIA JIN bDay...
wanna wish him a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!![sweet 16th=)]
all e best in ur 'O' level...jia you!!!best wish!!!GOD BLESS YOU!!!


fOr yOu i will...=) if i can...
soon i will be going to my sweet lala dream land le...nite nite...
GOD BLESS...


crying out to e LORD...
praying nth will happen...
w!55 yOu..


"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



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Monday, October 09, 2006

erm im back from my aunt house...im tired=( feeling sick...hate e HAZE making mii really sick...
will be going back to work but still dun know when start...no more school for mii le...haiz i should be happy de but im nt tat happy...i miss my school my teacher my classmate my friend....4 year fly so fast really really dam fast im really leaving my secondary school le...18 oct is my last day going back in my school uniform to take report book n tat day is oso our graduation party...argh now dun really gt e mood to post le haiz...=(

on my way home on e bus im thinking
wat can i do 4 'HIM'???
i dun think i can do anything 4 'HIM'
i can't even pei 'HIM' when he need mii
i can't be there when 'HIM want mii to
i can't give 'HIM' any promise
[cos it maybe a broken promise]
he wasted his time n money on mii but i did nth 4 him...
cos i really can't do anythink 4 him...
[i got my difficulty...i think only my close friend will know ba]
so im trying to tell him tat to give up on mii dun waste time on mii le
cos i know nth will happen in e end we won't be tgt de we can't be tgt...
if we continue like tat it will only hurt both of us...
maybe we jux dun have to fate ba...
hoping tat he will understand mii
if im given a choice i wish i can be wif him...

"i miss u
i wish to c u...
i wish i can be there wif u when u need mii to...
i wish i can hug u tightly & nv let go...
but it will only happen in my dream...won't be true???"


won't be sleeping early 2day...going to watch my VCD[princess hours]

staying in e dream wif u make mii feel so sweet...i jux can't wait going to e dream n stay there 4ever...

GOD BLESS...=)

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"




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Saturday, October 07, 2006

ytd when CELEBRATE MY LANTAN FESTIVE wif ying si n ping hui...
we went Mr lim house then when 4 dinner near s.s.c...then to 306...
erm got nth much to say le...dun really have e mood to blog la...
going 4 cell group le then 2 nite won't be at home will be going to my aunt house to stay till tml i think...
will upload e pic i took ydt, when i get them...


"dun show your anger to mii, i tolerate more than you do
can you pls spare a thought for mii n e other..."

this looks like a fairytale
with no place for me in it
I feel so empty,really so empty
When will my prince come and take me away
from all those TOOPIX thing happening around mii...



should i jux 4get about e dream
tat im hoping on???
im toopix!!!

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



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pic of FET LUN HAI n e Korea Drama (Princess Hours)







WANG DONG CHENG he is so shuai...=)




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Friday, October 06, 2006

argh...ok 2day was my last 'N' lvl paper...my mood was not really good 2day i dun know why just dun feel like talking dun feel like doing anything...in e morning woke up online ,bath then went meet ping hui ,ying si ,soon kei n so on..... at Mac...stduy 4 a while then when school 4 math paper...
haix don't think i will pass my math le...haix...im so toopix im really toopix im really really toopix...=(


i got so many thing to say but i jux dun know how to say it out...
i really dun know how to...
i dun know hu will understand mii if i say...
i jux wan to be a happy ger,
a ger hu dun need to worry so much,
a ger hu dun need to care wat other say
a ger hu can live in her own life in her own dream
a ger hu can do watever she wan
n a ger hu will nv be alone in her dream...
can i???can i jux be tat ger....




waiting n hoping...
hate myself 4 being so toopix so useless....



"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



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Thursday, October 05, 2006

aiyoyo...sian ar...will nt be posting tis few days till my 'N' lvl end...
ying si went to cut her hair ytd...she ask mii to pei her cut oso....but i scared later i cut le very funny...=P i ask my mum should i cut anot she say i cut le will look more like "EGG" argh...all say e same thing...say i will look like egg...=( then my papa say i should cut...argh dun know la...
[still thinking should i or should i not????]
jin jie told mii tat i can go cambodia trip wif them in dec...wahaha...but very ex le...$400-$600 OMG...have to start saving if im really going wif them...=X

Theng ong:erm dun blame urself le,not u fault...u r nt BAD,u r nt DEVIL...NO NO u r NOT...
they 1 day will know n understand u de...kkk...tc..dun like tat...anything can come tok to mii.... heheh i will be a good listener de...=) like u...

gtg le having my E.O.A paper at 2pm...so bye bye..tc...


Dont Walk In Front Of Me,I May Not Follow.
Dont Walk Behind Me,I May Not Lead.
Just Walk Beside Me And Hold My Hand...


GOD BLESS...
im still waiting n hoping...

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

aiyoyo...my whole body feel so pain...argh im old le la...my old problem come back le my leg will feel pain when is going to rain or e whether change...argh dun like lo...=(

ytd when Mac study...at first was very quite de then my laopa(tony),jin jie,harry,kia jin they all came Mac study oso..argh then they keep talking to mii take my waller c my neo-print...then nvm c jiu c lo still give so many comment..toopix!!!...
then Mr lim c us like no mood study le so he go off first..=P
hehee...he teach mii till he wan to vomit blood...
[but i really dun understand wat so i keep asking lo...sorry..=P]
i study till 8.50 i went N.T.U.C help my mum buy thing then reach home at 9.10...mum ask mii i eat le mah??? i told her i eat le n i say i eat alot...if i say i only eat apple-pie she will nag at mii so i told her i eat alot 4get wat i eat le..hehee...
dun feel really well went i reach home feel a bit dizzy...then nvm i nv care i watch TV make my paper crane till 11.30 then i can't take it le so i went to slp...


2day Math paper 1 was avg to mii...but tml science paper jiu no hope le...haix...i nv even open e book to study...but is not i dun wan to study is jux tat nth get in to my brain...argh..if can i hope i can jux get a pass...better then a fail...so now i have to force myself to remember wat i can...sian...
e whether 2day was ok..but in e monring was raining...oOo ya thanks to ying si father he drive us home jux now...=) so i did nt walk in e rain...
argh i think my stomach got problem keep feeling pain n wan to vomit...jux now at ying si father car oso feel like vomiting but nv...everytime like tat de...
im still thinking should i go YC..cos all P3 nt going...sian...

going to Mac study again later...meeting pig hui soon kei i think at 6...
now feel tired le going to rest first...tc..
i can't upload my pic i dun know y..nvm i tml try again...


mi still holding no to a dream tat won't come true???
argh i really dun know...
i wan to c u...but we jux dun have to fate...haix...
im hoping n hoping...jux to c u...
i w!55 u...=(

GOD BLESS...
killing mii...so pain...

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



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Monday, October 02, 2006

erm toopix!!! ytd did not went study..argh!!! cos of my papa la..dun know wat happen to him la wake up jiu start kp mii n my sis...argh...then i told him im going out study he say i always say go study go study dun know i really got study anot...argh got lo...i got study lo...toopix!!!
then nvm since he say like tat i dun go lo...i stay at home watch TV , listen to song n make my paper crane...dun care him...i make e thing make till i so sleppy then i slp awhile but i thing i too tired le slp till my mum call mii up 4 dinner but i still dun wanna wake up i say 5 more min...but my 5 more min was not 5 min...mum let mii slp till 10.30 she wake mii up again...say u still dun wanna wake up eat ur dinner ar...i ask her wat time le...she say 10.30...i thought she say 7.30...
so i say wait still early...then she say 10.30 still early ar..i was OMG 10.30 le ar...i haven even study 4 my paper...argh...then i told her nvm la i dun wanna eat le so i skip dinner n continue to slp till tis morning....

then 2day was my first paper...so not that scared la...heehe...=)
e paper was okok to mii...then tml is MATH paper one...im scared i will fail again...=(
so 2day can nt slp so early n can nt online le must study le..heehe...
later meeting Mr lim ,ping hui , johnson , soon kei n ying si 6 at Mac...

all e best to all those who is taking 'N' lvl...jia you jia you...
theng ong:can nt chat wif u every nite le haha...must stduy so will nt be online....
we can chat after my 'N' lvl kkk...hehee=) u oso must jia you!!! dun give up...tc...

*c e pic i took
tml will post e pic i took at e wedding dinner...


tis few days i keep eating chocolate...
hahas...=)
luv CHOCOLATE!!!!





heehe..eating my CHOCOLATE now so nice!!!=)

haix...feeling funny now...my mood is not really rite=(

so im eating chocolate now...hope my mood will change...

argh...nvm dun wish to say wat happen ytd...

hopeing n hopeing , wishing n wishing....

mii dream can come true....

GOD BLESS...

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"




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Sunday, October 01, 2006

erm kie....ytd did not post did not online...cos reach home very last at about 1++ then too tired le bath le jiu sleep le...went 4 my aunt wedding dinner arghh so sian lo reach there at 7 then e dinner 9 then start...toopix!!!
then in e moning woke up at 10 online n chat with theng ong 4 a while then went to bath...then jiu when to meet melissa , jocelyn , nydia n cherie 4 cell group at my mum(miss jia ying)house...heehe..so long nv c her le really miss her =)...n ya she cooked 4 us heehe then after tat she show us e pic she took in e cambodia..wahaha is alot lo i c till i amost fall asleep...=p..

then now im going out to study le...tml my first paper..argh so scared!!!=( haix...
i still gt alot of pic to post but nt now will post to nite or tml...

heehe..look toopix rite???=p

"broken dreamsa shattered hearta lonely soul"



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