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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

i still can't slp!!!
iam dam angry n pek chek ok...f**k la... [mood swing!!!]

argh!!!okok...watever la...why every thing i do seem so wrong in ur eye....
why can't i do wat i wan...iam nt always wrong ok...n u are nt always rite oso...
im still here cos i still have two sis to take care of...n i have promises mummy to take care of them...if nt i dun think i will stay here i would rather go back to Malaysia to stay wif my aunt....more freedom then now...after all now u r nth to mii ya u r maybe a stepfather but wat ever u or ur family do or think is all because of THEM nt mii...i know ur family use to hate mii n mummy alot...so wat i dun care i dun give a dam oso..."i am wat i am hate it or like it up to u... "I DUN CARE!!! understand..."I DUN!!!" now mummy had leave i dun see e point for mii to stay oso...haiz....sometime i think back why mummy wanna bring mii here why dun mummy jux leave mii wif my aunt n come here herself n get marriage without bring mii along...maybe she will be more happier n will live longer....

**I DUN WAN TO MOVE HOUSE!!!!
i have being say tis for so many time...
why r u still asking mii whether i wan move or nt...
if u insists of moving...then dun ask mii jux move...

GOD iam trying very very hard to listen n obey him but there is oso a limit to it ok...i can't jux always doing wat he wan...i need my own time my own life....
GOD pls help mii iam really loss...sometime really think of giving up everything include u my lord...i know tat im wrong i should nt have think like tat but........argh i dun know how to say it out la...forget it...SORRY!!! i know tat im wrong...pray tat i can still obey you in ur word n have more wisdom in doing thing...
"open my eye that i may see wonderful thinks in your law" psalms 119:18



hate crying to slp...wake up confirm eye swollen...haiz....TOOPIX!!!
hate being alone in e night when there is thunder or lighting...
feel so alone now...hate being alone...i m scared!!!... without yOu
haiz dun know who will understand???who will wan care???who will wan share???
maybe there is jus tat i dun know how to share wif tat person...
ok my back start aching lex...i think is time to go to bed lex....
so will end here lex...sorry for e long post or maybe a long "xin si"...



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